Your Sweetest Doll

2011-07-20T18:39:00.000-07:00

have been seldom blog. Really miss blogging. busy with schooling. yay ! fasting month is nearing. im so effing excited. bsok dpat gaji. cant wait to use my bodyshop makeup. weehee. i hate my hair. it look so ugly. got to do something with it. that's all i can blog for now. currently in school doing stupid coursework. will blog again if im free. tc my dearest blog.

2011-06-06T05:39:00.000-07:00

heys. im currently at besfren's crib, mira. happy to meet her. went to my workplace cause i wanna resign but my rgm, luz didnt allow me to resign. I hate quarelling with people at my workplace. seriously, they are friendly people but who would love to work with people who didnt respect them? Me myself dont like that way. dont u feel the same way too?i will be away from the store for 1 week.im not ready to work at the place yet. stress -_-

2011-05-23T04:05:00.000-07:00

It's just a sad thing you did not feel what i feel. all your words totally makes me melt. how i wish you could feel my sincere love in my heart. did you realise the big difference between us ? Age. but i don't care about that. I've never thought i would fall for a guy who's a divorcee with 3 kids. If i were to bring you and your 3 kids out of the small spaces and show them who you are and your kids to me to the world, for sure they are going to look down on me. I'm such a young girl and I'm willing to take this risk. If i am a heartless girl, I would not love and stay faithfully towards you. I would just pretend to love you and just make use of your money which I know you are not that rich. Can't you see that ? i hate you because you make me love you in the first place. Everything has change now, after all the suffering i felt. My feeling has change for you. Yesterday was the last day i'm meeting you. I don't wanna meet you actually. As i've decided that yesterday was the last time im gonna meet you, i forced myself to meet you. I don't feel like contacting you anymore. That feeling of love has already changed. From being someone special to someone whom i called stranger. I felt unfair on how you had treat me. But who cares ? You are no longer everything to me. You don't have to pass me your new number. I've never regret making this decision. I aint like last time. imma strong girl now. Seriously i am :D

2011-05-21T19:14:00.000-07:00

i will be using my blog again. weehee. must find time to update my blog. its a must . will update again yeah . soon :D

2010-11-30T05:38:00.000-08:00

i'm not sure about my feelings towards you. i'm afraid to fall in love again. i've found someone who can lead me to e right path. but i'm not ready to be in a relationship. sometimes, i feel like avoiding you. at e same time, i want you to be by my side. i'll cry wen i fought with you. do i really love you ? i dont know what i want in my life. i'm scared. that's all i can say. you deserve someone better than me. trust me .

2010-11-21T04:22:00.000-08:00

i'm afraid to fall in love like seriously. i just can't force myself to love anyone.

2010-11-02T08:29:00.001-07:00

busy busy busy. lazy to update blog uh. will update soon.

2010-10-13T22:33:00.000-07:00

busy with work.

2010-09-21T01:30:00.000-07:00

2010-09-19T21:29:00.000-07:00

2010-09-19T21:18:00.000-07:00

2010-09-11T18:13:00.000-07:00

2010-08-29T01:55:00.000-07:00

nothing to blog. im tired and pissed off.

2010-08-23T09:19:00.000-07:00

HAPYY 17TH BIRTHDAY MIRA BBY ! I LOVE YOU !

2010-08-23T08:42:00.000-07:00

2010-08-23T01:06:00.000-07:00

im sick of love like seriously. i don't need a boyfriend in my life. They are just toying with my heart. They ? yes. I'm referring to my two dear ex boyfriend who left me for another girl in the past. i've move on. but why they came back looking for me ? with a damn good reasons. alep just broke up with his gf and yan fought wif his gf. like f*** rite ? alep ask me whether i still have feeling for him. my answer is definitely nono. after he left me just like that. i broke down so badly that i hate him at that point of time. but i do really mish him. i cant deny that. & yan conctact me. telling me that he want me back too. yan kept reminding me of the past and ask me something like engagement. dat reminds me about the past too. i still remember a girl texted me saying she's yan's fiancee. & i still remember that i broke down like shit that time in the middle of the night . they are just giving me shits in life. alep want me back after he broke up with anna & a few days later , yan contact me. omg. they are just using me. well, i took my bestie's advice. i treat them as a friend. i dont care what they wanna treat me as but i knew everything better. please. let me move on. dont disturb my life with all your shits.

2010-08-13T01:38:00.000-07:00

2010-08-07T02:38:00.000-07:00

"the best kind of friend is the one you could sit on a porch with, never saying a word and walk away feeling like that was the best coversation you've had."

"it is easier to forgive your enemy than your own friend because you put all your trust on your own friend."

"the hardest part of dreaming about someone you love is having to wake up."

2010-08-04T05:03:00.001-07:00

WHO WANT TO BE MY NEXT LOVER ????? =)

2010-08-01T18:01:00.000-07:00

been busy with school. yehyeh. fasting is around the corner. i guess no mood nk rayer. cos n lvel otw. oh n lvel, please come soon. i wanna get over with it very fast becos i wanna werk and earn money. a lot of stuff happening to me. but i just take it as a challenge in my life. don feel like using hp animore. mybe just change no. idk. stress to e max. kk. im off to school. nnt lmbt. craps.

2010-07-19T01:14:00.000-07:00

2010-07-11T00:16:00.000-07:00

i feel like giving up on love. i don deserve to be in love and those guys ddont deserve to love by me. its unfair. you play with my heart . what u mean by all this. i actually give up on love before this but u are the one who told me to move on. you gave me high hopes. when im hoping on you right now, u went away. what do you want from me actually ? just tell me.

2010-07-10T23:42:00.000-07:00

2010-07-05T01:38:00.000-07:00

2010-06-30T02:46:00.000-07:00

IM STREESSSS WITH N LEVEL !!!!!!!!!!!

2010-06-21T06:22:00.000-07:00

2010-06-18T00:15:00.000-07:00

NOT IN THE MOOD -_-.

2010-06-14T16:28:00.000-07:00

saketnyer hati . i hate to be in love.

2010-06-14T16:03:00.000-07:00

13 june:

my parents and i went to geylang to find something. mama was so pissed of wif a guy. cos he comment something on my ___. my mum heard it and nags all e way. some indon and bangla look at me like wat sia. my parents left me behind and they walk holding hands. kesian aku kt blkng. kalo tau mcm ni, i wont follow. hmmphh. after that, we head to banquet and had our meal. we ate fish soup. very yummy. after that went to bustop to take 43 home.otw to bustop, i donnoe mat2 aner la. indon ? sg ? mysia ? i dont know la but a guy comment something when he walk past me. " cantiknya ". i turn and look at him and he smile. i'll smile to everyone but dont know why im pissed off that time so i diint smile . nnt mama menyumpah lgik. waduhh .

12 june:

as no one at home,i decided to go uma nenek at geylang bahru cos my lil bro and sis overnight at their place. anyway, im bored. my parents went to the market. abg came back from werk but he went out again to (dont know where). im pissed off that day. grandparents nag at me alot. waduhh . benci tol.

11 june:

last day of poly attchment. end damn early as many people did not turn up. buih. went to tamp den ari decide to mit at bedok cos he's tired. lazy ass. we had a small argument that day. im sori ari, reach home at 7.

10 june:

poly attchment till 4. met aidaa at yishun and have our meal at kfc.

9june:

poly attchment till 4. went home straight. damn tired.

8June :

poly attchment till 3+. went to typ met mirabby to borrow some money. went home earlier dat day.

7 june :

poly attchment till 4. saw few familiar faces at nyp. after attchment. went met mirabby at tpy. reach home arnd 6 plus.

2010-06-01T23:35:00.000-07:00

yestereday, i went to expo. So, waited for mira, fafa, shida, fiqah, atiqah and nadhirah outside their school which is at ite simei. felt weird cos there are quite alot of bdk2 ite simei there. After that, we head to expo hall 4. john little sale. nothing attracts me except the earing, the dress and of course, bra. nyahaha. the bra all quite nice but some has no size for me. mostly A and B cup. tsk. benci tol part ni. den we all begin asking bout bra cup and size. oopss. i lied to them. malunyer psl. somemore, fiqah boyfie was there too. i told them i wore C. with that, they say, "besarnyer." imagine if i tell them my real cup. hmm. aper agaknyer diorg jwb. huhu. about 2pm, we went to our seperate ways. we salam n hug. i forgot to hug fafa. huhu. rindu dier banget. hmm. i had fun with them. superfun. being with them, can make me laugh till there's no tomorrow. haha. hope to hang out with them again during e june. mira, atiqah and i took bus 12 to pasir ris cos i wanted to go cotton on to buy shoe for my poly attachment. & then, mira said she have it. so i decided to borrow her shoe. mira and i went to have our 'so called' second meal of the day at kfc. i only had bread for my breakfast. atiqah went to mit her boyfie. while eating, we both chatted alot. i mish those tymes alot. too bad, eyfa wasnt with us. it will be great if she were there too. the three of us will go out soon together k. please ! after that, atiqah and her boyfie join us too. mira and atiqah very e kelakar. sumpah sia. haha. mira went to buy another chicken as she was still hungry. hrp jek badan kering, tpi mkn nyer byk. haha. & serak sunggoh dier makan. mcm itik sia kau b. haha. after we finish our meal, we went off as mama call already. went to toilet. when i wanted to enter the cubicle, i heard someone saying 'fifie dollystar'. i thought nothing of it. its my old cyber name. no longer using that name. mcm merepek namer tuu. haha. when i finish my small business, i wash my hand and someone asked me, " ni fifie knn?' i wass blur. i cant recognise this person at all so i ask her, "ni saper ehk?". it's nina pantat. omg. sumpah i dont recognise her cos da lamer we didnt talk kt cyber. i think e last tyme we talk kt cyber was last year. i asked her to wait cos i need to wipe my hand to shake hand with her. i shake her hand and hug her. and i ask her this, "mcm maner u leh recognise i ehk". i know it sound stupid but seriously, she can recognise me kt lua eventhough da lamer kiter tk bbual. actually wanted to exchange no., but i was so rushing dat tyme.mlz nk kau hp. so i told her paper find me at tagged. mira was laughing at me at the other side. she said i ask nina a stupid question. haha. wadeva la b. aku gabra siol b. haha. took photo while waiting for 109. b, cpt2 upload pic k b. im waiting. went to mira's house. wait for her to change into her baju kejer. mira's mum was nagging at her. haha. it looks funny when she said" adek stress dudok uma", when her mum was nagging at her. i dont know how many tymes she has been repeating "aku stress uh". haha. so went to hg ave 8 to buy cake for dad. terseremapk ngan faliq. he dye his hair. tk kene langsong to me. hmm. masing2 la knn. so after buying cake, teman mira at bustop. after she board 109, i went to hg green and bough sweet talk for mama and adek. it's my treat. baek sunggoh aku. i was so damn tired yesterday. bla. bla. ( e picture do e restof the talking. )

having extra classes just now. was so damn tired cos im fasting today. finish earlier cos ms tay was damn angry i think but she didnt show it. i wanna say sorry to her tomorrow for sleeping in her class for that 1 hour plus tomorrow. i was damn tired. kla. dats all reader.

2010-05-30T21:13:00.000-07:00

im really pissed off with my parents. i know it's a sin to say that i hate them. but seriously they really make me angry. especially my mum. because of her, my plan is ruin and then she twist her words. wtf. and then she said im so rude. she's at fault actually. yeah , parents wont admiit their mistake. they are always right. im creating a sin when im typiing but this is e only way to say out my feelings. my mum can never understand me. the fact is, she don't understand me at all. i hate people who twist their words. my mum is twisting her word too. today, she say A. tomoroow she say Z. both my sister and i are so pissed off with her cos we both were there when she agree to my plan and just now, she said she didnt agree at all. which child wontt be pissed off. tell me. and i think my plan are ruin. i dont feel like talking to my mum. but the sake of respect and she is my mother, i have to talk to her and entertain her. thanx a lot mum.

i got to know a guy. i wasnt interested at him at all but he was superb caring and friendly. first time in my life, a guy test me just to know my inside. & because of that, im pissed off with him. im bad sia. i know he is sincere. i dont know whether i gt feeling for him right now. somehow, im missing him right now. whoever that guy is, it's a secret. i don want to get attach but it seem he's trying to win my heart. oh god. open my heart to him if he's the one for me. amin :D

2010-05-26T23:54:00.000-07:00

i feel like cryin when i redo my n level coursewerk. can i make it for my n level ? im so stress with all the subjects. i only pass 2 subjects for my recent exam. my confidence in passing n level is slowly fading away. & im scared to sit for n level.

2010-05-25T23:22:00.000-07:00

i've been using e comp since morning just now. a lot of stuff to do. 1st thing is to do the stupid assignment that had been assign by teachers. best thing is , im not schooling today. close already. huhu. & im not excited about the june holiday at all. I got a lot of stuff to finish up. books come first . n level on the way. having parent meet later on. im not scared at all but im worried that mama will start nagging. oh dear. she will nag non-stop. i pray hard that she will just nag a bit only when she saw my result. i pass 2 subject out of 6 subject.

english - 52%

math - 46%

malay - 78%

comb sci - 49%

comb hum - 27%

food & nutri - 43%

its very bad right ? if those results are my n level result, i don think i can enter ite. omg ! i should study well from now on. really pity my parents. They work hard just for me and im giving this type of stupid result. i might as well call myself a stupid asshole. grr. so damn angry with myself. no use if i were to scold myself. CAKAP TK GUNA, TEMBAK TK KENA.

what's wrong with me now ? im so cruel i think. seriously, i dont have the feeling of love amymore for anyone. all guys are so desperate that they badly want to be with me. i just nod my head n entertain them loh. they dont understand that im not ready to be in a relationship. i just get to know them. i mean, i've chatted with them a few times but i just feel normal. they are treating me like their girlfriend. hello, we don even talk on the phone and had not meet up yet.so please la guys. so irritating. i dont want to love anyone yet. i just love my family and gerlfriends. i don think im being cruel. i've already said that we cant make it to having relationship, but u guys are the one who keep looking for me. if i dont entertain u guys, u say i so snobbish. wth. im friendly, u see. so i entertain them loh. & im not going to give hopes to anyone. no way i'll do that. i still got heart. dont say that i didnt warn you. got to go. preparing for parent meet later on. die man .

2010-05-20T05:52:00.000-07:00

just recover from high fever. and now currently having cough, flu and sore throat. damn. cannot sing sheii. hmpphh. im gonna blog very short cos abg need to use comp. n somemore im not feeling well. IM SO IN LOVE WITH MY BLOG SONG !!!!

2010-05-11T22:50:00.000-07:00

currently in school. finishing my n level coursework. & finally its done. i don think im gonna blog too much cos my hand is so damn cold and im not able to type more. i watch a video that was spread around in facebook. im damn pissed off with e guy who slap e girl. he is a gay but still he's a guy. sunggoh dayus. to me, if the girl did something wrong i would just slap her once or twice. in that video , e girl just kept quiet . mcm bdk bodoh. i guess, evryone condem that guy so much. no comment la .well, i guess u guys should just watch and keep e comment to urself.

2010-05-08T18:41:00.000-07:00

create a big card for mama and wrote our dedication on e card. sweet kn kiter lima ?

i wanna say SELAMAT HARI IBU utk mamaku yg trsyg. selama nie, fiza byk lukakan hati mama. kdg2 buat mama nanges. fiza menyesal mengeluarkan kata2 kasar terhadap mama. fiza hrp mama maafkn segala kesalahan fiza. sesungguhya, syurga di tapak kaki ibu. tiada wanita yg dpt menggantikan tempat mama. mama lah satu2 wanita yang membesarkan fiza dari bayi smpilah sekarang. Tanpa kasih sayang mama, fiza tkkan jdi manusia yg berguna. walaupon mama selalu memekak kt rumah, fiza buat bodoh je. sebab fiza tahu, andainyer mama pergi dri dunia ni satu hari nanti, fiza pasti akan rindu semua tentang mama. i'll study hard and get a gd job & buy anything you want k mama. no matter what, i love you so much mama. selamat hari ibu .

ayul's dedication

fynaz's dedication

fiza's dedication

abang's dedication

ayil's dedication

yesterday's plan tk menjadi becos mira need to look after her nenek. then, tot wanna slack under e block wit her & eyfa. eyfa went orchard n den no news from her. mira also e same. no news from e both of them. im damn bored at home. text with kiki & aidaa. den bla. bla. bla . at 8.30pm den went to mit mira for awhile. on the way go ntuc, mit mira skali. den accompany her go mac to buy food for her nenek i think. plan to go out next sat. mintak2 jadilah. nk g karaoke or jln2 kt bugis ehk ? i feel like karaokeing. hmm. tgk la mcm maner. hopefully nex week's plan go smoothly. oh ya, im pissed of with someone. wat do u feel when u talk to someone in a gd way and someone reply u in a rude manner? kau keje ? kau bz ? tkder care baek per nk bbual ngan aku? kau mmg kwn aku sia. tpi buat aper kalo kwn tk respect kwn dier sndri ! kau piker aku adek2 kau ? im really pissed of if someone talk that way to me. damn.

2010-05-05T22:32:00.001-07:00

i just know you. but i love looking at your smile. i love the way you talk to me. we talk about alot of stories at our 1st mit and 1st conversation as if we have known each other for long time. but all is a coincidence. should i say e word regret for confessing my feeling to you. i like u as in like only. not yet to fall in love with you. i prefer being friend with you. i thought you were gentleman but you were not. not even saying sorry for making me waiting for your call and end up asking me to online. wth. my feeling straight away change. i like u as a friend. that's all. no more worries miting u up. no more shy no more scared. so just take it that i like you as a friend. so don think that im despo till i confess my feeling that fast. nothing wrong with liking people right ?

2010-05-01T17:38:00.000-07:00

good morning . i woke up so damn early at 6 plus in e morning. wanted to slip back but was unable to due to my stomach pain. do business in toilet for like twice already. since i cannot sleep, i listen to my favourite song in mp3. im so in love with my blog song. on comp then go fb cos mama wanna see something. after checking fb, went to youtube to watch video. its so damn bored tawuk. its already past 9 & im still stuck infront of the comp blogging. da tkder paper nk buat lgik. nnt ptg, going to play kite. weehee. walaupon tktau maen, i still tag along to play kite becos i will play chasing with my lil bro. mcm bdk kecik sia aku. haha. 2moro not skuling. i wanna study my physics. really wanna pass this tyme. kla. dats all readers. mama da biseng suro mandi. will update again when im free. insyaallah .

2010-04-29T23:59:00.000-07:00

i think my blog is going dead soon but im so gonna save it by updating once im free. i've never been busy like this way before. still counting e days to n level. books everywhere in my room. im sick of those books in my room. but for e the sake of doing well in my studies, i force myself to look at those books. i was so confident on passing my exam but when few questions were left just like that which i did, my heart ache so much . i just realize i love math . hmm. really hoping to pass my math. and my comb sci. mudah-mudahan. insyaallah. i've already plan to go where after n level. i cant wait for my n level thingy to be over. & get a job. & save a lot of money cos dere's many things i wanna buy. 1st thing come first. i wanna treat mama to makan. all this while, mama & bpk was e one who feed me food w/o complaining, so its my turn to repay them. im so a filial daughter . i noe. aper lgik ehk nk post. hmm. i hate dat horse uh. she's e only person that i love to kutok . cos she will nvr stop backstabbing ppl. part nk mengutok dier, mira bby will be my best partner. im friendly, you see. bt tis type of people uh, tk tau nk ckp aper. hmm. kla. that's all people. still gt a lot of stuff to be done. take care readers :D

2010-04-04T01:53:00.000-07:00

im having leg cramp rite now. went out wit cuzzie ystrday. supposedly kiter g blaja, den naqiah ajak jalan2, den aku pon go ahead uh. pantang org ajak jln. arnd 1.45, i went out of my house. took bus to paya lebar. den train to tanah merah and den changi airport. kaki lengoh jack. diri jek. den smpi arnd 3. naqiah wasnt dere. aku punyer sort. aku da tkder hp. well, s'pore bknyer miskin sgt smpi tkder public fone. tol tk ? luckily i wrote naqiah's no. kt paper. hehex. sediekn payong sblom hujan. met naqiah outside mac. she decided to go bugis. tot nk blaja saner. aku pon maen okey jela. selagi ezlink kad ader isi, aku go jek. haha. train to bugis. it was raining renyai2. went to library den decided to jln2. we head to bugis junction. a lot of guys who walk past me, stare at me . ader hutang ker ? as i was walking, gt la tis two mat swetswet kt aku. aku uat bodo jela. gi mampos. haha. den head to bugis village. rmi sgt org. den ader la mat2 maner ntah kt sbela kip tgk2. ni lgik 1 anak . ader hutang ker? ya ampon. den gt minah2 oso look at me semacam. i don look like minah wat. wats wrong with this ppl. face problem i tink. i tink its becos i wear dress. bt naqiah kater i look okey in dress. ntah yer. maseng2 nyer pandangan la kann. den tis naqiah can still say, "sekali skale tumpang glam kejap kua ngan u." wth. haha. so jln gi carik mkn den go internet cafe. about 7 gerak from e place. i train from bugis to tamp. naqiah train to eunos. it was fun kua ngan dier. haha. so reach tamp, and den took 72 home. nk naek bus pon ader mat nk tgk2. ya ampon. aku raser aku ni byk sgt hutang org uh. haha. reach home at nearly at 9. luckily mama & bpk tk bunyi. naseb. i was damn tired at home. bath den went to slip. i skip solat. omg. aper nk jdik ngan kau fiza. haha. kla. dats all. wanna off comp. tired.

2010-03-28T07:04:00.000-07:00

im feeling sleepy rite now. tot of blogging after upload pic, bt mater cannot take it. so stress up wit coursewerk. perhaps nex tyme i do a proper blogging. nites reader . muax.

2010-03-23T08:43:00.001-07:00

a double blow for me today. damn. its hard for me to handle . really. two things really hurt me. and it came from both of my x. ALIF AZHAR & ADNAN. so tell me, wat wrong have i done to e both of u wen im with e both of u respectively. have i been lying to u guys till u lied to me badly ? i did stay faithful rite? omg, i feel like crying. da cukop korang maen2kn hati aku. krg tk adil.

aper salah aku ? ya allah, kuatkn hati aku. aku tk kuat ! ARGHH !

ALIF AZHAR, just stop pretending kau on e run k. tkya nk tipu aku. tk perlu nk antar aku msg mtk aku 2gu kau sumer. aku da tau la tactic bodo kau. aku mmg tau kau tipu aku. step tkder cent konon. muler2 kau kater kau ngan stacci tkder paper. aku cayer la kater2 kau. almost 2 weeks kau tk cnct aku. diam2 kau ader yg laen. don pretend as if nothing happen k. smpi nk ajak aku mit.y kau tipu aku sia alep? if kau tknk aku, teros terang uh. tkya tipu aku. remember all the promises u made? u r e one who make alot of promises my dear. aku brsabar slamer nie. i trust all ur werds cos i love you so much dat tyme. & now, my heart are totally close for you. thanx for evrything. thanx. throw away our photos & e letter that i gave you. u don deserve it. oh ya, happy 1 monthsary in advance alep ! thanx.

MUHD ADNAN, i've already forgive all ur mistake u made in e past.u want me bck in ur life. im willing to forget all e past n accept u bck in e future. i wanna see if u r really sincere in wanting me bck. bt it seems kau maen2kn aku.lpas satu pompan ,satu pompan. kau kater kau syg aku. kau yg nk kiter balek mcm dulu lgik. kau buat aku sygkn kau balek lpas tu kau saketkn ati aku. aku tk tau aper kau nk dri aku.kau tipu aku lgik sia yan. biler kau da ader yg laen, tkya la kater yg kau nk aku alek. kau bgi aku harapan palsu sia yan. aku piker kau btol2 da berubah. ternyata tk sama sekali. maken tue maken ganyut. hati aku saket. ARGHH ! smpi hati sia kau. aku akan balekkn baju kau. i mean it. throw away all the photos, card and letter i gave u. u also don deserve it. oh ya, happy 8 monthsary in advance adnan. thanx.

2010-03-19T06:23:00.000-07:00

a lot of picture. i donnoe y nowadays i feel like taking pictures. bare with it ppl. mood very bad nowadays.

2010-03-16T19:45:00.000-07:00

upload pic only. lazy to blog. not in e mood.

2010-03-07T07:54:00.000-08:00

currently 12.36 am. im e only one who's not asleep. sumpah im tired. went to chalet at pasir ris . having a family gathering. it was fun. mlz nk elaborate cos not in e mood to type alot. check tagged and sumtin makes my blood boil. sumpah, aku nk nanges pon ader. love sux. love sux. damn. ya allah, kau kuatkn hatiku ini.

2010-03-06T18:15:00.000-08:00

having u in my life was a happiness for me. but sometimes this question keep running through my mind," do u really love me?". i check your bloody tagged and ur x lover are trying to be sarcastic with me. asl kau tknk teros terang jek yg kau att ngan aku. ur reason, " i nk saketkn hati dier alek." bt kau tk piker sia b. kau mcm anggap aku ni mainan kau sia. bahan saketkn hati org. x kau trying to say dat aku ni syok sndri. berangan sgt pannggel kau hubby. kiwek. kau mataer aku sia tuu sbb aku panggel kau gituk. if kau bkn mataer aku, tk sudi sia aku nk panggel kau gituk mcm. for how many tymes should i cry for u b? ur happiness is my happiness. if kau maseh sygkn ex kau, aku akan lpaskn kau. jus tell me k b. mmg dier saketn ati kau, bt kau leh blg dier yg kau att per.gituk je da leh buat dier saket ati. do u still remember e msg i saw at ur hp dat tyme? u see how patience am i rite ? very patience. bt deep inside of my heart, im crying like hell. kau tktau knn ? from e 1st tyme aku accept kau, tkder 1 jantan pon aku layan. aku setie ngan kau till now sia b. i've oredy gave you tyme to prove ur love towards me. i wanna see e outcome in e future . i'll wait. For now, tell your ex that you are att or let me go. im not threatening. this is a test for you. i don wan any third party in our relationship. hope you understand.

2010-02-27T23:59:00.000-08:00

" Do you, Norhafizzah take me, Alif Azfar as ur lawful wedded husband?"

this is the sweetest msg i ever received. OMG. terdiam sekejap. i guess u guys knew what my answer is. 260210. FIZALEP's love story begans here..

yesterday was damn tiring for me. mcm pelarian. went out of house at 12.15. met nazli outside skul to take batt. den slack with him jap cos my plan on that dat was ruined.don wanna tok bout dat. menyaketkn hati jek. after that plan to meet wiewie. went to her house and slack up till 2.30. after dat wiewie accompany me to bustop. took 854 and head to bedok. e journey took bout 45 mins. wait for naqiah at bedok inter for 15 mins.we head to library but there were many people there. decided to go marine parade. jalan2 kt saner cos kiter due tkder mood nk blaja. haha. we went to roxy square den we went to parkway parade. b kol me and told me that dier kt marine parade too.so went to mit him .nervous uh sheii. haha. arnd 6 i met b.b wait for me together wit his fren. ader dier kater muker aku tue mcm 22 tahun gitukk. jahat sia kau b. grr. den met skejap jek cos running out of time nid to go bedok reservoir . sala diri kau uh b. kau yg paitow per. aku kol kau , kau off hp. we walk and talk alot. sumpah, aku happy giler yesterday. but too bad, skejap jek. he gave me a kiss annd i hug him. how i wish i could hug you for e rest of my lyfe n never let u go. took 15 and went to uma nenek at bedok reservouir. mybe meeting him tomorrow. insyaallah. i mish him alot. b kol me early in e morningg and told me dat mybe in 3 yrs time he will migrate to australia. i almost cried. b, kau janji kau tkkn tglkn aku.u betta go and talk to ur dad bout tis. i don wan u to leave me. i love you b. dats all readers. wanna continue my coursewerk. takecare.

2010-02-25T06:26:00.000-08:00

wanna wish my bbygirl HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY. cheyy, org tuu da 18. da lepas uhh. smoge kau panjang umor n murah rezeki. wanna tell you dat i love you so much tau b. plus aku rindu kau. must mit me soon b.

2010-02-25T03:29:00.000-08:00

i feel happy when you came back into my life. promise me u wont go away and leave me again baby. i've gave up on up to be with him. & that's the biggest mistake i've done. he left me to be with other gerl. & i don bother about it at all. my feeling has already fade away before he could tell me the truth. & at this point of time, u came back into my life. im so happy about it. i still kept the feeling i have for you. trust me baby. i aint like what you think bout ur ex. i wont leave you. please, don dissapoint me after giving me hopes. im no longer adnan's babygirl. he left me. i dont love him anymore. & yes i did told u that i cried for him. but not now. u're the only guy i want now. im waiting for the day u'll be mine. if we are meant to be together, no one will make us apart. i promise you that. i love you baby. ALIF AZFAR BIN ROSLI.

im sory ehsan. no mean to hurt n lie to you. seriously, i don like you . n its hard to say e word love. n u kept asking me to give you chance. bt i cant. what for if u can have me but not my heart. i love him. i cant deny that. im sory.

2010-02-09T23:33:00.000-08:00

lazy to type . facebook sort and cant save e pic. will upload my pic with eyfabby. mish them .

2010-02-02T23:11:00.000-08:00

Waktu terasa semakin berlalu
Tinggalkan cerita tentang kita
Akan tiada lagi kini tawamu
Tuk hapuskan semua sepi di hati

Teringat di saat kita tertawa bersama
Ceritakan semua tentang kita

Ada cerita tentang aku dan dia
Dan kita bersama saat dulu kala
Ada cerita tentang masa yang indah
Saat kita berduka saat kita tertawa

2010-01-28T00:48:00.000-08:00

Will seldom blog from now on

Do find me in facebook, tagged and msn

who wants to be link and relink, do tag me at my tagboard.

Does who have change number do update me through my number, msn, tagged or facebook.

Once im free ill get back to you guys as soon as possible.

will be changing my number soon.

ill update you guys once i've change my new number.

Please dont forget me cause i never forget you guys.

Takecare people

2010-01-28T00:26:00.000-08:00

I'M A SINGLE LADY , and i have already move on

Thanks for everything adnan!

Happy 26th birthday in advance,

iloveyou

2010-01-16T09:19:00.000-08:00

as i'm free right now, im so gonna blog. like normal, short & simple. just came back from bedok as there is family gathering. we gather with our relatives from indonesia. it was so kecoh. especially the budak2 kecik . aku suker layan budak2 tuu. cos i love children tawuk . talk about n level stuff with cuzzie. & we plan to study together evry weekend. im so gonna belajar. many people are pushing me to go poly. since i love children, im gonna take early childhood. im gonna study very hard . that's my wish . i ate alot sia. i ate tulang, ayam & rojak india. & my tummy never grow bigger but my babat are getting heavier. byk tayar sak kt perot aku . haha. huhu. at 12 midnight, my family went home. one of my uncle sent us home as there was no more bus. when i'm about to salam , one of my aunt said something like nk jodohkn aku dgn mamat indon. yg peliknyer, byk2 pompan, asl aku plak yg diorg nk jodohkn. padahal sdare aku yg laen bbual rancak ngan mamat indon tuu. aku tk bbual tros pon. sbb aku ni pemalu kalo 1st tyme jumper org . hehe. told mama bout that. mama kept quiet. haha. nonsense uh ni sumer. biar aku yg pilih sendiri . mamat byk per. bt nk setie, ya ampon. kene suro aru setie. hmm . im yawning right now. very damn sleepy. i tink i wanna wait for yan's kol. if dier tk kol, den aku tknk ckp paper uh. take care. goodnite readers :D

2010-01-10T06:48:00.000-08:00

busy with school. will seldom blog.

2010-01-04T04:05:00.000-08:00

1st day of school was very damn boring. seriously. for 1 week tk belajar. padahal aku berkobar-kobar nk belajar . taik tol. it seems evrything has change. & oh ya, the uniform sux. i don wan to buy but mama insist on buying it. so, malas nk argue, turutkn jekla. aku kan filial daughter, cheyy. haha. don wanna talk about school. boring . oh ya, finally b make me smile. i dont know whether i should trust you again . but as a gf, i woluld love to trust you back but with one condition, kau buktikn kt aku aper yg kau kater ituhari kt aku b. not in the mood.

2009-12-31T05:18:00.001-08:00

a few hours to 2010. im effing excited. i cant wait to leave 2009. a lot of sweet & bitter memories. for e 1st 6 mth, i was happy with all my loved one surrounding me. & for e last 6 mth, okey2 la. mlz nk elaborate. im gonna be a new NORHAFIZZAH. im no longer e old fiza yg merengek krane cinta. & dats not totally me. & b, kau piker aku tk tau kau maen blkng aku ?? kau besakn pompan laennyer kol dri aku. pompan philipine ehk ? suker ati kau la nak. kau nk dgn pompan vietnam ker, thailand ker , suker ati kau. bangladesh pon tkper oi. haha. im not e old fiza who gonna cry for you. kau da berubah b. if u really love playing this game, im SOOOOO gonna join you. & i find it fun. haha. but kau kene piker. kau da maken tue abg oi. smpi biler kau nk jdi kaki pompan ? & i think i can live without you. cos what for waiting for your call when u are waiting for someone else's call? & im happy right now. i think i've change. just me. but not my feeling. my love for you is still strong. but someone are willing to share my pain. so sweet . well, hope 2010 will gave me a better life. & hope you would change & love me sincerely . happy new year readers:D

2009-12-28T22:38:00.000-08:00

glad everythings back to normal. thankz to mira, eyfa, pendek, lya, kit & acap 4 e concern. thanx korang. wish me last long with him okey. thanx

2009-12-28T22:15:00.000-08:00

happy 5 month anniversary !

There's nothing I could say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me
All the pain, the tears I cried
Still you never said goodbye
And now I know how far you'd go

I know I let you down
But it's not like that now
This time I'll never let you go

I will be all that you want
And get myself together'cus you keep me from falling apart
All my lifeI'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

I thought that I had everything
I didn't know what life could bring
But now I see, honestly
You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe 'cus you're here with me

And if I let you down
I'll turn it all around'cus
I will never let you go

I will be all that you want
And get myself together'cus you keep me from falling apart
All my lifeI'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

'cus without you I can't sleep
I'm not gonna ever ever let you leave
You're all I've gotYou're all I want
Yeah
And without you I don't know what I'd do
I could never ever live a day without you
Here with me do ya see
You're all I need

2009-12-26T07:24:00.000-08:00

I FEEL LIKE KILLING MYSELF ! PLEASE DON'T STOP ME. & DON'T BOTHER BOUT ME. MY NIGHTMARE IS AROUND THE CORNER. 3 MORE DAYS TO 5 MTH & U NEVER EVEN BOTHER TO ANSWER MY CALL & EPLY MY MSGS. I WILL BE CELEBRATING OUR 5 MTH BY MY OWN W/O U WISHING ME. I CHECK UR TAGGED, I SAW SOMETHING. I WANNA SHUT MY MOUTH. I'VE NO STRENGTH TO OPEN MY EYES. ALL I CAN DO IS TO CRY OVER WHAT I SAW. MY LIFE IS MEANINGLESS. YA ALLAH , KAU TABAHKAN HATI HAMBU MU INI. DAN KAU LINDUNG ADNAN DIMANA DIA BERADA. KAU BUKAKAN PINTU HATI DIA. SUDI KU MEMAAFKANNNYA DAN TERIMANYA SEMULA. AKU MASIH MENUNGGUMU WAHAI KEKASIHKU. KAU BERJANJI KAU TAKKAN TINGGALKANKU. AKANKU SIMPAN AIRMATAKU INI UNTUKMU WAHAI ADNAN.

2009-12-24T19:08:00.000-08:00

what's wrong with you love ? its been 3 days u are like that. you don even bother to call me. why didnt u believe me that i didnt even lie to you. i've been crying for you. are you going away from my life just like that ? how about the future my dear ? please don't leave me yet b. are you willing to see me in this state ? i'm sharing this sorrowness alone. i try to be independent. i don't want any of my friends to know what i'm going through. i don't want to trouble them. enough is enough. do you know how hurt i am when you accuse me like that ? the mistake that i didn't do. someone please wake me up from this nightmare. i hate going through this nightmare . oh god, please give me strength to go through this. someone please tell me that i'm dreaming. i still need him by my side. i've been dreaming about him. i dream he left me just like that without a single word. i even talk to myself. i don't know what's wrong with me. please, someone wake me up. come and tell me that i'm dreaming. take a knife and slice me. it doesn't really hurt compare to the pain in my heart. ouchh .

2009-12-24T05:19:00.000-08:00

21 december 2009

finally went out wif cuzzie. met them at paya lebar. so went im walkin towards my cuzzie, gt tis group of boys pass me. one of them said, " hi awak ", aku buat bodo la. maner nk layan jantan mcm gini. tlg la. i aint a flirt girl lyke krg k. im att so i noe what im doing. then we head to grandlink. we karaoke for 4 hrs. n then i went off first cos i wanted to mit my love. he asked me to mit him at clementi at 7 or 7.30pm. he wanted to rest first. so , i was thinking. i should mit him or not. kalo dier da tdo, dier tkkn seda punyer. so i go ahead. the time journey from paye lebar to clementi by train was 30 min. so waited for b kt clementi bout 15 mins. i call him many times but he didnt ans. i text him he didnt even reply. i was like 'wth'. ppl was looking at me. especially e bangla. eww. bluekk. with dissapointment, i went back to paya lebar to join my cuzzie again.b text me and said sorry. when i receive his msg, im no longer angry towards him. i wonder why. bt seriously b. aku mcm nk bunoh kau jek. aku chop2 kau aru tau ! haha. so reach home bout 10.30pm. im so damn tired. otp with b and then went to sleep.

2009-12-22T18:44:00.001-08:00

saturday, 19 december 2009

so on saturday, i went to help nenek sdare with rewang . when reach their house, there's nothing to do. so sat down and listen to mp3. then, aunt yani called me and lil sis to came in to her room to see all the barang hantaran. and then we have a very long talk as she cant went out of the room as she was getting married. i have to follow uncle boboi's to akad nikah. i wasnt wearing baju kurung so i borrow aunt yani's baju kurung. luckily it fit. cos im getting fatter. woohoo . & mama told me uncle boboi's wife father is jatt ali. so yeah it was true cos i saw him when akad nikah. so bla. bla. i was damn busy at on that day. org laen yg kawen, aku yg busy. actuallie i wanted to watch aunt yani's akad nikah. unfortunately, i have to goreng epok2 kt dapor. they left me alone in e house as everybody went down to watch. sodey sunggoh tau. hmmphh . bt its okey. mak pengantin da janji nk tlg aku biler aku kawen nnt. i reserve u tau nek nah ! haha. btw, happy 60th bithday to my nenek !

sunday, 20 december 2009

hari persandingan aunt yani/dzul & uncle boboi/effa. to me, that day was very unlucky for me. guess what? kain aku koyak. so saper2 nmpk tuu diam2 jekla. haha. while eating, aunt yani/dzul bersanding. so bla.. blaa. all bdk kompang was looking at me while they were eating. and then one of them walked past me and say hello. wth . aku jeling uh. tkkn nk layan knn. oh yeah, saw my x there. such a small world. tukang cuci pinggan. he changed alot. gd for him. oh ya, i dont like aunt yani's mak andam. seriously no offence. mlz nk citer2 panjang2 cos if aku start citer, boler buat storybook. nyahaha. bt overall it was fun. nenek's side was fun gyler. hope diorg tlg rewang biler aku kawen nnt. aku ader feeling2 nk kawen tau. cheyy. skola blom abes da nk kawen. :P

2009-12-20T18:34:00.000-08:00

monday , 14 december 2009.

went out with b . its like finally after 2 mths we met. im so f happy at dat time. so we went to eat chicken which is my favourite at kfc. we ate chicken black pepper. so spicy. when i look at how b ate, its kinda funny. dengan hidung2. haha.after that , we went off to find his sweet. & i bought chocolate . thanx for the treat b. im so gonna be fat if u keep buying me food tau b. after that, we went to compass point to fetch my lil sis. while waiting for my lil sis, gt this two girl smile at me. it was e front girl who smile first then the behind one. i was like 'do i know them?' so being friendly , i smile bck. b said mybe my pose was funny thats why they smile. i was holding an ice-cream and i was like posing. haha. mybe kot. after that, we went to our seperate ways. b gave me a hug and a kiss before he went off. aww . im so touch tau b. bla. bla. i reach home.

2009-12-13T04:47:00.000-08:00

see that gmbr above. burokk sunggoh. dat tyme was hari raya haji & i was e 1st to bedal laok dalca kt uma nenek geylang. & astaga, tgk kain aku. nmpk lutot oi. mama smpi biseng. "aper pompan mkn mcm gini. mcm jantan." LOL . buat bodo jekla. haha.

besok jdik ker tk ni. haiz. so streesss. reallie want to mit b before he go reservice. damn. haiiz . ntahla. c how. wait for abg to come back home. ni satu pon tk tau nk alek. aiyo. a few more days to cik yani & cik boboi wedding. org laen kawen aku yg excited. haha. mcm best gituk nmpk org kawen. haha. & confirm cik yani gonna be pretty on dat day. & of cos cik boboi wife-to-be. haha. wondering wat to wear on their wedding day. chey, mcm aku yg nk kawen plak .hahakz. ala. pki simple suda. dats oll for blogging la. will update biler rajen.

2009-12-11T03:55:00.000-08:00

* muker sunggoh tk perlu. just came bck home from tamp & taadaah, muker -_- *

still counting e days to reopening skul. im so excited. i cant wait to sit for my n level. i dont know why. & of course cant wait to to see my deary fren in skul. i still rememba e day when the four of us get was happy to know that we made it to sec 4. so excited knn. haha. memories. alot of memories. & confirm canteen senyap jek. batch kiter yg laen sumer da graduate. how sad. hmm. & i make a plan already. after n level, i want to work. & bla..bla. tknk plan2 jaoh2, nnt tk jdik. hees.

to taggers, tahnx so much for tagging & e compliment. so touching. nuhh, im not that preety. all guys are just e same. sori b for sayin this. when they are att, they will for sure so called ' the moment of lie' LOL. when being asked, of cos they would lie. & girls are the one who will always close one eyes. pretending nothing had happen. & of cos, if they know someone who is more beautiful than their own girlfriend, they start to change. lelaki tetap lelaki. perempuan sahaje yg setie. wahai lelaki di bumi ini, sedarlah diri yer. kalau tkder perempuan, krg tkder family. please hargai perempuan yg sygkn krg. cheyy, mcm phm uh aku . heheks.

dats ol for blogging cos i will never do a proper blogging. nyahaha. never.

2009-12-06T04:17:00.000-08:00

who's e hell is baby s*******? bini kau per ? braper byk kali kau nk tipu aku ? aku da setie dgn kau. aku cukop sabar dgn prangai kau. sabar sekali. kau sendri mengamok biler aku chat nagn laki saner sini. bt aku tk pena tipu kau. aper kekurangan aku ? mmg aku tk lawa. aku tk sprti aper yg kau inginkn. kalau kau rase pompan tuu lgik sempurna utk kau, silakan. mungken dier yg boler bahagiekn kau.aku tknk halang kau. kau pon umor da braper. tkkn kau nk stick ngan bdk mentah mcm aku. kau pon nk raser kawen knn. kalo kau nk kawen ngan aku lgik lmbt. so kau gi la ngan tuu baby s*****. aku tk mrh pon. aku sedar aku saper. aku da biaser kene buat gini mcm. aku saje yg slalu setie. mungken naseb tk berpihak dgn aku. im not perfect.

2009-12-04T02:40:00.000-08:00

early in e morning, received a very sad news. one of my primary school fren's mother, faliq passed away. sedeh tau. i bet most of them from yckps kenal dier. i heard she passed away becos of heart attack. got e news from zulfadhli's mum. & then the news was passed to the rest. mama wanted to go menziarah. bt she gt other plan so just doakn faliq's mum. semoga allah menerima rohnya di sisi allah . amin .

2009-12-01T18:48:00.000-08:00

im feeling sick right now. having a bad flu. my eyes are swollen. & im having sore throat. dasyatnyer ! aku da lamer tk saket gini mcm. mtk2 tk demam uh, kalau demam, mati siol . bareng kt katil jek. so boring.

where are you b ? are you sick or what ? there's no msg or cal from u for 1 whole day. im f worry here. please give me a msg saying you are fine. please. hope you are fine .

2009-11-28T19:29:00.000-08:00

u make my day sux mama ! u & ur beatiful mouth. stop bringing up my past la ! u tink u so perfect ? after carrying me for 9 mths and taking care of my 16 years in this world, u called me a name. a name that a daughter would not ever forget. what's wrong with u mama ? & yes , im a bad daughter. in fact, an evil daughter. IM TIRED ARGUING WITH YOU ! no matter what, u always win the game. i give in cos u are the one who brought me to this world. i respect u as my mother. & of cos, ur mouth . -_-

2009-11-28T00:52:00.000-08:00

yesterday went to nenek geylang's house first for hari raya haji. & sumpah make up smlm mcm cacat gituk. haha . & it was super fun kt ruma nenek geylang. especially wen aunt arynne , aunt lin , nenek 'rock' & e rest. dont ask me why its nenek rock. haha. we joke around & nvr stop laughing. how i wish i could stay longer. & mati2 aku igt nenek geylang masak mee soto. craving for chicken tau. skali lauk dalca & mee hongkong. sedeh per. hmmph. then after that, we head to nenek bedok's house. gt tis funny nyonya actuallie. haha. she was talking to bapak. then , when mama, fynaz n myself approach bapak & the rest, this nyonya bangon dari tmpt dier n approach aku. dier kater gini " beautiful " . LOL ! smpi nk terjatoh dier tgk aku. agknyer terpegon tengok aku. haha . then dier tanyer mama, * pointing at abg * " this one her boyfren uh ?" ya ampon. boler mati aku kalo abg aku mataer aku. dala pemalas. opps. sori. haha. aku raser tuu nyonya nk jodohkn aku dgn anak dier. haha.tkperla nyonya. kalo anak nyonya byk duet bolerla. haha. aku kawen anak nyonya tros tunggu dier mati jek. duet jdi aku punyer. tros aku kawen dgn org yg btol2 aku syg. bolerknn b ?? haha. den head to nenek bedok's house . it was raining. sejuk kt dlm bus. dan akhirnyer aku dpt jamah ayam. sedap u !! woohoo. den bout 10+ went bck home. kul 12+ tdo. materbengkak. contct lens da expired. haha. thats all. looking forward for cuzzin outing & meeting b. i mish my two girlfrens.eyfa & mira & of cos fafa fruitella & lyn kecyk.

2009-11-26T01:56:00.000-08:00

i get a wake up call from b at 5+ in the morning. We talk like per normal. But at the same time, i felt dissapointed. he had really change. I wonder why. we talk and talk and a conversation we had really weakens my heart. i try not to cry.

Me : u bknnyer heran kalau u hilang i. bknnyer u rugi paper. * testing him *

b : kalau i hilang u, i nk jadi gay pulak.

Me : mcm paham ! limit2 pon tk smpi 1 bulan u dah ader yg baru.

b : jgn ckp 1 bulan , 1 hari i da dpt. i da break ngan u, besoknyer i dah ader yg baru.

i just keep his word in mind. What else can i do? i really put my heart and soul into this relationship. It's not easy to replace him. He talk as he like. he doesnt know how i felt when he said that. Maybe to him it's a joke. but to me? i can't imagine that i had stay faithful towards him for 4 months. VERY FAITHFUL. i had never said the word single to any guys. Sorry to hurt those guys who put hopes on me. I want to be with the one who loves me NOT with the one who likes me. Nowadays, my love for him are getting stronger. Almost everyday i would dream about him. I had never been like this before. Is he really special to me? im worry he will leave me one day. the way he treat me it's totally different now. I feel that his love for me are fading. I got to be strong. BE GIRLS DON'T CRY RIGHT? i can't do anything. The sake of love, i'll let him do what he want to me. Cause 1 day later, i want him to realise that,

I'M THE GIRL WHO HAS BEEN FAITHFUL.

I'M THE GIRL WHO LOVES HIM SINCERLY DESPITE HIS AGE.

I'M THE GIRL WHO HAS NEVER STOP CRYING FOR HIM.

I'M THE GIRL WHO STILL STAY BY HIS SIDE WHEN HE IS JOBLESS.

I'M THE GIRL WHO HAS NEVER ASK ANYTHING MUCH FROM HIM.

I'M THE GIRL WHO WANTS TO GO THROUGH THICK AND THIN WITH HIM.

AND..

I'M THE GIRL WHO IS WILLING TO TAKE CARE OF HIM FOR THE REST OF HER LIFE.

( one day, you'll realise how big is my sacrification for you adnan )

2009-11-25T00:05:00.000-08:00

** just cut my fringe **

im feeling giddy right now. i also dont know why. tk sedap badan. whats wrong with my lyfe now ? i have to forget bout my past. i've to move on to my future. my studies ? can i make it ? can i make my parents proud ? i got to think bout my future. i have to please my parents. i dont care about other people. they are the one who brought me to this world. i want to get a diploma for my parents. i want to prove to them that i can study. once i got a diploma, i'll better get a good job and treat my parents very well. in my future, there's only my parents. i want to make them proud before its too late. i dont bother about other stuff. studies. studies. studies. i love my parents than any other things & people in this world. they are my everything. i want to clean all the tears in their eyes. They are the best parents for me. no one can replace them. dont worry k mama . dont worry k bpk . i had let down the both of u. & promise that i'll do my best in my studies. i love the both of you. im feeling giddy. feel like vomitting. hubby, u've change. bt i still love you. im not in the mood to talk about our future for now. u've just said something that weakens my heart & strength to hold our future. remember about bachelor party ? -_- let the time be the witness for our future.

2009-11-24T17:45:00.000-08:00

Happy 16th birthday FAFA FRUITELLA !

hope tk lmbt nk wish kt sini yer syg ! semoga panjang umur & murah rezeki. AMIN !

2009-11-23T20:56:00.000-08:00

nothing much to blog. currently watching radit & jani at youtube.

**Radit and Jani are in love and decided to get married despite Jani's parents objections. Without a stable job, and Radit's drug addictions, they have to live a tough life. They become petty thieves to get by, and they go through it happily, knowing they have each other.

One day, Jani realises she's pregnant. The fact awakens them that they have to start thinking about the future.**

2009-11-21T06:10:00.000-08:00

our relationship are getting more challenging nowadays . when every seconds past, im scared that u might leave me. remember what i told u ? im gonna make u my first & my last . u still remember the conversation we had yesterday night? we talk about our future. im so lucky to have someone understanding like u in my life. VERY LUCKY. i hope u are able to wait for me. Once i get my diploma, the moments we wait for quite long will come true. & by that time, its been 6/7 years we've been together. im gonna hold your account. that account is our future. you have to remember this b. i wont leave u. even though u'll turn 30 in 5 years time, i'll stick by your side. i don care whatever people wanna say about you. you are mine. you don't belong to them so they have no rights to say about u. & yes its true that we have no feeling for each other when i accepted u as my guy. its kinda funny but only god knows. up till now our relationship stay strong. our love are getting stronger. from a friend to a lover. so for now, we have to sacrifice a lot for our relationship. i hope u stay faithful towards me no matter what happen. i need to make my parents happy. they want me to get a diploma. so yeah b, while im busy with studying, u make yourself busy by working to save money for our future. remember knn b ? our plan . im 23/24 ? then 1 year thingy . after that, jeng jeng jeng. HAPPY MOMENTS for the both of us. im so happy bout that. but it tooks alot of years tau b. will you sacrifice to get what you want ? i will always love you hubby. no one can replace you. im gonna be your best ever girlfriend u ever had throughout your 25 years. semoga hubungan kiter berkekalan hingga ke akhir hayat. AMIN

2009-11-18T19:33:00.000-08:00

i've not been checking tagged for two days. mlz nk on comp. busy otp wif bf. so i check tagged just now. 20 fren request. 7 comment. 6 messages. 6 luvs. 3 winks. 2 photocomment. aiyo. b confirm mengamok tau. guys, don bother sending me msg or comment at tagged askin for my msn & all those kind compliment. i wont eply at all. i bet over 20 guys askin for my msn at tagged bt i didnt eply all of dem. so don waste tyme on my profile. appreciate it, but im att. i learn to be a faithful girlfren for b. i don wan to leave him. b asked me to del tagged. im still considering. iloveyoub.

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Aku rindu kau la giler! Aku rindu hug kau! Aku rindu nk dgr kau majok! Aku rindu nk dgr kau nangis! Aku rindu nk dgr kau ketawa. Aku rindu kau nye lame jokes! Aku rindu nk dgr kau marah2 aku! Aku rindu semuanye la b! Biler nk jumper sak? Haiz. Tk pun, bobal telephone la. Byk nk dgr n didgr. haha. Aku rindu la! Tak cayer, tanyer wan. setiap kali aku bbl ngan dier, mesti aku ckp aku rindu kau. haha. smapi dier kater aku merepek. N aku sayang kau tau! sebab at last kau upload pic2 kiter, hehe! N b, tgk nie, saper lagi gelap? aku kn doh! Cos this girl here keep complaining to me about her skin color tone. Gelap mcm mama la. aper lah. hee. sayang, i miss you alot. Really I do. No matter what happened, No matter how much we fight, No matter how much misunderstanding we have, I really hope it wont bring our friendship down. Cos i really do treasure this friendship a lot. I really do care a lot aboout you. Your happiness. Contact me soon!

(taken from mira bby's blog)

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so swit tau dier nyer post. aku pon rindu kau nyer jokes, majok , kau nyer mrh n evryting. aku btol2 rindu. & aku gelap k. oh no. im getting darker. nnt pki make up sumer tk kene . hmm. & finally kiter otp dat tyme. punyer happy i. kiter share alot of story ehk . i wish dat we could tok longer. ur telpon uma uh. aiyo. kau gayot nagn saper jekk. haha . & im glad to hear bout u & wan. if dier leh bahagiekn kau n dier mmg jodoh kau, alhamdulilah. mungkin kau sajela yg dpt ubah kn dier. tol tk tol? heees . oh ya b, lagu blog kau. tuu lagu i tau . hmmphh ! i pon ltk alek lagu tuu kt blog i. kiter same2 uh b. i tau lagi tuu utk wan knn ?? lyric dier meaningful knn ? haha . kiter share2 uh b. tuu lagu u bgi kt wan. i bgi kt yan. swit kn kiter ? cumer diorg jek tk tau hargai kiter ehk b. yelar, kiter sedar kiter saper knn . lelaki mahh ! hahas. b, biler kau off, kol i tau !!! i nk share byk bender ngan u !!!

2009-11-13T07:34:00.000-08:00

Jangan patahkan selera ku
Bisa hilang feelingku padamu
Bila kau slalu meragukan ku
Dan tak pernah yakin padaku
Padahal kita sudah senyawa dan sejiwa

Apa harus putus dulu biar kau yakin padaku
Bahwa cintaku tanpa siasat
Bila pun putus ku pasti menangis
Pasti aku nangis darah

Apa harus putus dulu biar kau tau rasa
Tanpa diriku hari mu kan kusut
Maka dari itu cintai aku, yakini aku
Pasti setia